A-m (umopapisdn) wrote,

So I woke up in the darkest of dark moods today. I lay in bed and contemplated ways to bash my head against the wall hard enough to knock myself out, and be found by my family members lying in a pool of my own blood. After mulling it over, I couldn't decide which wall would work.

I think I am just so tired of dealing with everyone else's shit right now. I don't truly want to be hospitalized, but I just don't want to think about all this garbage anymore.

I feel myself counting the hours until the fifteenth when they move out, but I don't think that the intensity of it all is going to end there.

So then I start counting the days until I start work again... and the first week, away in Toronto will be heaven... but after that, I'll still be back involved.

I love my family. I want to be here to support them. But I think I'd just like one week to go by without drama and intensity and what have you.

I have a full on "house-style" headache, whomp whomp whomp whomp... so I think I'll go back to bed. I'll figure out how to get my sleep schedule back on track later. I'm pretty sure at least 65% of my dark mood is because I've had my days/nights reversed for almost two weeks now. :/
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